A New Me!

I saw on Trim Healthy Mama's FB page yesterday that some ladies were blogging their journeys through becoming a trim healthy mama, and I thought what a great idea, why don't I do that as well!!

First off, I want to say how grateful I am to Serene and Pearl for all the years of research and writing this book.  Thank you, thank you, thank you for following your calling in writing this book. You are an answer to many prayers.   You are beautiful, trim, healthy, God-filled women who have done so much to help other struggling women. 

I started my journey to a Trimmer Healthier Momma (A new ME) on October 19, 2012.  I'm not ready to tell you my starting weight yet (still waaay to embarrassing), but I will tell you that I have lost 22.4 lbs so far, and 10 inches overall so far.  And I have a long way to go still.  But, that's all I'm saying about that right now!!  =)

Trim Healthy Mama isn't just a diet to me.  This is my new way of eating.  This is for life!  This book has changed my life, the way I think, and the way I eat!  Best of all...it's yummy food!!  It's not just salads and bland food that you have to do everything in your power to get down.  I've had delicious soups, chili, sandwiches, pizza, cheesecake, and ice cream with chocolate sauce. 

Ok, I'm totally about to admit something very bad and embarrassing.  I have a major sweet tooth.  I've always loved junk food.  Cookies, candies, cakes, ice cream, you name it!  Never have I had ANY sense of self control when it came to eating those things.  And the amounts of junk food I could consume was totally disgusting.  (Ok, here comes the embarrassing part)  I would buy the large family size bags of peanut butter M&M's and eat the WHOLE bag by MYSELF in 24 hours.  Or I would get the boxes of Little Debbie cakes and eat them ALL in a couple days.  I hid all this stuff from my kids and my husband.  Then I would feel guilty and ashamed, and then I would do it all over again, because I was already fat, ya know?  And that's what fat girls do, right??  I often felt tired, ashamed of myself, I wouldn't let anyone take a picture of me, I was grumpy and grouchy with my family, I had no energy, and I was always embarrassed to set foot outside of the house. 

Today, I am on a new road!  Thank you, God!  My dark and dirty little secret is now out there in the open.  I am overcoming these battles.  God is GOOD!!  I now eat without feeling guilty, or hiding food, or binging on food.  I have more energy than I have had in a long time.  I weigh less than I have in a very long time.  I'm still embarrassed with how I look, but I know I'm changing and getting better, and wearing clothes that I've had in my closet for years that I have never worn.  =) 

Tis the season to eat, right?!?!  This time of year is usually a pig-fest for me.  Even more so, than normally.  But, I think it's that way for many people.  Well,  I started my holiday baking a few days ago.  I have to admit, I'm doing really good.  So far I've made multiple loaves of pumpkin bread, 36 cups of candy popcorn, bags of dipped pretzels, pounds of peanut butter fudge, and pounds of Oreo fudge.  I did eat a little (ok, so it wasn't so little) piece of the peanut butter fudge the night I made it.  But, I'm ok with that.  It's a far cry from how much I would have eaten just  a few months ago.  I will keep on moving forward!  =) 

Ok, I'm gonna wrap it up in a minute, but thought I'd leave with what I plan to eat today.  I always like to see what other THMs are eating and maybe someone will like seeing what I eat. 

Breakfast- 0% plain Greek yogurt, sweetened with NuStevia, and I added in fresh black berries and half a banana.  That is an E meal.

Workout for 20 minutes and have a Big Boy smoothie afterwards for a snack. That's a fuel pull snack.

Lunch- Muffin in a mug.  S meal.  Who would of thought you could eat yummy chocolate muffins for lunch (or breakfast) and lose weight?!?!  But these are so healthy (and yummy) made with flax meal and coconut oil.

After lunch I have to take our foster babies to their visitation with bio dad.  It's an hour and a half drive into town, so I will pack a snack and bring it with me.  I usually pack a few chunks of cheese and some cashews or pistachios.  S snack

Dinner- since we will still be far from home we will be eating out.  I don't know where we will eat at yet.  But, I always eat S style when I go out, as that is the easiest for me to eat. 

Well, that's all for today.  I'll check in again soon!